This blog is intended to capture my reflections on living with Torah for a year. As Maraji and I re-married on Rosh Chodesh Tevet I wanted a way of exploring life in the first year of our re-marriage through the lens of Torah. I realized that though I read a lot, and talked a lot, I hadn't really done much with that study the year or so before our marriage in regards to sharing and getting feedback. It seems to me that the goal should just not be to produce Torah learners, but also Torah thinkers. The latter requires using Torah as we look at the world andd expressing what we learn. So, I decided to commit myself to writing. While I share some of these essays with other individuals this is mostly an archive of my thinking for my family. You will not find anything here that offers the clarity of a bright summer sun in a clear blue sky. These are just reflections in a pool of water. If you find anything meaningful it will be more like the dappled sunlight in a forest or the misty images that peer through fog in a woods. However, if I have learned anything over the years it's that one cannot afford to take any day for granted, one cannot afford complacency. So, as Maraji and I bean a new phase in life I wanted to do so thoughtfully and root that thought in Torah. Many, many thanks to Maraji because without her input and editing all this would be much less intelligible. I invite anyone reading to offer their comments on my postings. These are just my own thoughts, nothing more, and I am only stumbling toward Torah. (I shamelessly stole the title from Sarah MacLachlan's beautiful Fumbling Toward Ecstasy) – Rick Gwynallen